Pre-Weight Watchers Weight(6 months before Surgery): 360 lbs
Beginning Weight:(Day of Gastric Bypass): 344 lbs.
Current Weight: 275 lbs.
Weight Loss(after Surgery): 69 lbs.
Total Weight Loss: 85 lbs.
***I wanted to take a second and go through all of the numbers, including the weight I was at the beginning of the whole weight loss journey, just so that everyone could see how far I've come in around 9 months.***
Can you imagine it? S-I-X-T-Y-N-I-N-E!!!! I felt so great when I saw that number this morning! It makes all the sacrifices worth it. The pain after the surgery, the food restrictions, everything! I have weighed over 300 pounds for so many years that it's unreal to me to be at 275 pounds. If I'm counting right this Wednesday will be week 13 after Gastric Bypass and I can't wait for the next few months to see the changes that my body will continue to go through. I have more energy, I'm more positive, I'm no longer afraid of looking at the number on the scale or grabbing a random pair of jeans in my closet and hoping they're not too tight. I no longer lie about my weight and I know that it's only going to get better.
The food is still restrictive and I still long for a turkey burger on a real bun with a side of mashed potatoes but I know that eventually I'll get there and in the meantime losing this weight more than makes up for it. I had a discussion with a friend over the weekend about the restrictions and pointed out to her during a point in the discussion that giving up soda was not nearly as hard as giving up carbs which is surprising to me because I was equally addicted to both, and it really is an addiction for those of us with this problem. For so many years I would hear that the difference between someone who's thin and someone who's overweight could be put down to one simple sentence. The difference between those who eat to live and those who live to eat. And it's true, my constant focus was on what I was eating or what I would be eating next. I would barely go a couple of hours between meals without thinking about food. I loved food, with a little more emphasis, loved loved loved food. It was my best friend, it was there whenever I was down, it never criticized me, it never called me names. It was delicious and comforting and always around when I needed it. Food is an addiction, I quit smoking 3 years ago but could never quit overeating. It took a drastic measure, gastric surgery, to finally make it possible for me to take a step back and really see the sickness that I had let food become. I am so grateful that I went though with the procedure, as scary as the thought of surgery was at the time, I knew that I had to make a change and if I couldn't do it myself then I would have to be willing to accept the help that my body needed to succeed in the form of gastric bypass.
I won't pretend that I haven't marked the day on my calendar when I can have that turkey burger and mashed potatoes, October 4th is the 6 month mark, but I also know that I will always have to watch what I eat to insure that I'll keep the weight off. No more 2 bacon, egg, and cheese biscuits from McDonalds for breakfast, no more footlong Subway for lunch AND dinner. My sister would point out a multitude of times in the past that I was stuck on 2 of everything. 2 biscuits for breakfast, 2 sandwhiches all the time, 2 griled cheeses, 2 six inch subs, etc. and she was always right even though I always ignored her. I knew she was right at the time but I told myself that I didn't care. I'm determined not to fall back into this pattern and plan to join weight watchers again when I get to the point that I can start eating normally again so that I don't start overeating again. It really wa s a great program and I would recommend weight watchers to anyone. It just wasn't enough for the massive amount of weight loss I need, at least that's my opinion.
That's all for now, when I get some new outfits this weekend for the coming vacation I'll have to post an updated photo
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